10 Day Self-Love Day 2

Day 2: 5 Positive Affirmations

1. I am loved, loving, and loveable.

2. I want love and love wants me.

3. I forgive myself for any and all mistakes I have made.

4. I am beautiful.

5. I am enough.

Google says an affirmation is 1. An action or a process of affirming something or being affirmed. 2. Emotional support or encouragement.

Basically there are two types of affirmations. Positive and negative. Negative affirmations can be true statement however they tend to be ones that tear a person down. The goal is to remind yourself of all the things you do have or can have in your life.

Talk soon,

Marena

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10 Day Self-Love Day 1

Day 1: 5 things I love about myself.

1. I love the color of my eyes. No matter how terrible a day has been I can look in a mirror and fee like I’m drowning in the color of my eyes. Sounds a little strange but honestly something about the color makes me feel at peace.

2. I love being a wife and a mother. Nothing prepared me for the joys I’d have as a wife and a mother. Every morning I’m so happy to hear my husband tell he loves me as he heads off to work. And my heart turns to mush the second my daughter wakes up and yells Mama with her soft little voice. I think I kick butt at being a wife and a mom but honestly I don’t always give myself the credit and ove I deserve as one.

3. I love my ability to make friends. As a child and teenager I struggled to make true friends. But over the last few years I’ve made some of the best friends possible and I love that about myself.

4. I love my hands. I was born with 4 finger on each hand some webbing on one hand. Over the years especially as an adult my hands have been the thing I love the most about myself but it’s also the thing I’ve hated most. I hate being looked at funny or treated poorly. If like to let go of hate because my hands have been one of the biggest factors in who I am today. Plus once again I realized if I hate something as simple as that about myself then I can’t teach my daughter to love every physical feature she has.

5. I love the amount of love for others I feel. No matter if I just met you, met you years ago, you’ve done me wrong, or you haven’t I love you with all my heart. Something in my just says I have to love you. It’s as easy as, 123 as simple as, do re mi. Seriously the easy love I feel for others reminds me of the Jackson 5 song.

Let me be honest this was easy but also hard. It’s like I coudnt easily come up with things I love about myself but then when I did come up with one I would think to myself, “that was easy why did I complicate it”.

What are 5 things you love about yourself?

Talk soon,

Marena

10 Day Self-Love Challenge

10 days of learning to love myself more. First let me admit something…. This challenge makes me so nervous. I tell myself and everyone around me that I love myself and I think highly of myself. But let’s be honest here, I put myself down more often than my infant daughter changes her mind about the toy she wants to play with. (Trust me that’s a lot).

So my goal in the next 10 days is to truly dig deep and learn to love myself better! I encourage you to do the same! Because let’s face it if we can’t love ourselves how can we expect others to love us properly. And what really hits home is if I can’t love myself how can I possibly teach my daughter to love herself.

Talk soon,

Marena

30 Days of Thankful

November 27, 2017

Today I am thankful for Food Network Channel! I enjoy watching all the show on Food Network. It’s amazing! I have such a passion for cooking and this channel has actually taught me how to do so many things. Not to mention just made my mouth water with some amazing looking food!

Plus it’s nice to have a channel that plays so many shows I can easily get hooked in to. Especially while my daughter sleeps, my husband is at work, and all the household chores are done!

Talk soon,

Marena

Day in the Life of Kairi

The other day I took the time to try and think about what goes through my daughters mind. Obviously being as I’m not an 8 month old I don’t really know. So most of this is what I think might be going on and what I hope is going on. 

*I’ve never really writen like this before so it feels silly. I hope it turns out nice. 

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The sun starts to rise, birds start to chirp, reveille starts to play on base, and a little baby cries out for her Mama. 

She’s awake and ready to play! But first food or maybe a diaper change. 
“Mama! Mama!” She says in her head while out loud it’s just a simple cry.

Down the hall Daddy is getting ready for work. He hears his baby girl and quickly goes to grab her. Letting his wife get just a few more minutes of sleep.

He opens the door slowly as to not startle the baby. The first thing he see’s is her smiling face. She never gives anything but a smile when she wakes up and he hopes that lasts a lifetime.

“Oh I hear a noise! I wonder who it is?” Kairi thinks to herself. “DADDY! Oh I love you daddy! Pick me up! Where’s Mama? Where’s Marco? Oh Daddy hurry up! Pick me up!”

And of course he does. He then takes her back to his room where Kairi plays on his bed while Mama sleeps and Daddy gets ready. After a while Daddy kisses everyone and heads off to work.

“Alright Mama it’s time for food! Get up get up get up! But uhh first give me a kiss!”

Mama smiles down at Kairi and gives her 3 big wet kisses. 

“Yuck Mommy that’s gross…. Wait are you done with the kisses? I wasn’t done! I guess thats okay. Give me FOOD! Don’t you know I’ve gone all nighy without food?”

Mama and Kairi head downstairs. 

“Mama I’ll play while you make me food. But don’t take to long. Ohhh look remote!” Kairir picks up the toy remote and starts chewing away. She also picks up and puts down every toy within reach and then goes and empties her toy basket.

“I hope Mama doesn’t mind this mess? Nah she likes cleaning up after me. I mean my toys are always back in the basket every time I wake up. That must mean she loves taking care of my toys!”

A few minutes later Mama returns with a sippy cup of formula and cereal for herself.

“Ma what’s up with this sippy cup in the morning again? Don’t you like holding me and a bottle? Well I guess if your hungry too then you can eat.”

Mamas stomach growls loudly.

“Wow what was that? Did that come from you Mama? Did you eat a bear? That’s cool!” Kairi rolls over and procedes to finish her whole bottle.

2 minutes later. Bottle empty. Diaper full. Cereal half gone. 

“Alright mom. Change me! Now!”

“Cold cold cold! Come on lady do you need to use a cold wipe?”

*Couple hours of play passes by and now it’s time for nap time. (Sweet giggles and happy play then a switch flips and it’s cries and yawns).

“MAMA MAMA MAMA FOOD!”

“Oh now you want to snuggle me. Why don’t you snuggle me evertime I eat anymore? It’s okay I still love you!”

All the bottle but half an oz are gone and Kairi is practically asleep. So Mama goes to lay her in bed.

“Wait! I wasn’t finished. I’m awake I’m awake… yawn… Okay I’m not awake. Put me in bed!”

Sleeps peacfully for 3 hours.

CREEEAK.

“WHATS THAT! Oh just Mama! Come on I was sleeping. Why are you waking me up? Well I guess if I’m awake you can change me!”

“Don’t put me down….Put me down! I want to play!”

“Mama where did I come from? From an egg? That’s so confusing….”

“Mama why do you feed me yucky prunes and carrots? I guess if you have to feed me those then I have to make a mess.”

20 minutes later and a VERY large mess. 

“Mommy why do I need to be clean? I like messes! Fine take away my fun and clean me up!”

“LET’S PLAY! I want to bounce. Bounce. Bounce. Bounce. Bounce. Woooo that’s a lot of work. I’m done bouncing.”

Mama comfortably on the floor relaxing.

“Mama watchya doin? I’m going to join. Oh look hair! I’m just going to touch it. Don’t worry I’ll be nice.”

“Mama why are you making that face? Does this hurt? Here let me try again. MAMA don’t move your hair. I was having fun! Hmph fine move your hair. I’ll just crawl all over you and kick you.”

Just a little more play time and then it’s time for Kairis nap.

She gets extra whiny and impatient.

“MAMA HURRY UP! I want that bottle. HURRY!”

Instant sleep! And hapily for 72 minutes. No more time and no less time. 

“Mama come get me! I have a special gift for you. Hehehe”

Clean diaper and ready to play.

“Mama why does daddy have to work? Why can’t he stay home and play with us all day?”

Time for food and more mess.

“Food food food. Oh yummy food.”

“Mama can we play now? Who am I kidding of course we can.”

As the day wears on and fun is had it gets closer to bath time and bed time. The dreaded bed time.

“Mama is it bath time? Ohhh it is. Yay!”

“Splish splash taken a bath! Mama you’re right that is catchy!”

Mama pours water over Kairi.

“Ugh Mama we talked about this. Why do I always need cleaned?”

“Cold cold cold. Hurry up lady and put clothes on me. It’s cold!”

Pj’s on Mama about to read a book (Goodnight Moon) and bottle in hand.

“Good night cow, goodnight moon, nighty night little old lady, night night stars, night everyone.”

“Mama I love you. One more hug okay?”

“Wait just one more. Maybe two?”

“I promis last hug and kiss!”

“Mama tell daddy to give me a kiss when he gets home!”

Few hours later Daddy is home and it’s almost time for a late late snack.

CREEAK. 

“Oh hi daddy! I see mama told you I wanted a kiss.”

“Oh you’re picking me up? Awesome lets snuggle.”

“You brought food too! YAY!”

Bottle gone and almost alseep.

“Night Daddy. I love you!”

Fast asleep and asleep until morning.

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This is a “normal” schedule for Kairi. Like I said before I obviously don’t know what she was actually thinking. But I hope her thoughts are as happy as these.

Also no laughing if the writing style is bad. I’ve never written like this. And I probably won’t for a while. It was hard.

30 Days Thankful

November 5, 2017

Today I’m thankful for my daughter. I’m thankful that all she knows is love. And that she loves me. I love her sweet smiles and even those sad tears. I love that she kets me cuddle her to make every bumped head better and kiss every booboo. She’s almost 8 months old and she has me so wrapped around her cute little finger. 

But most importantly she made me who I’ve always wanted to be. A mother. And I’m so excited to grow as a mother and she grows into her life. I find myself constantly looking at her with happy tears in my eyes. All I care about is that she grows to be a healthy amazing little girl. And that she always knows I love her more than I ever knew was possible.

I love you baby girl!

Talk soon,

Marena

30 Days of Thankful

November 3, 2017

Today I’m thankful for the basic that isn’t really basic. I’m thankful for food. Yeah I said it. FOOD! Today I have just been constantly hungry. I swear I eat a full meal and 20 minutes later I’m hungry again. (And no I’m not pregnant).

I’m thankful for the ability to have food in my home, the ability to cook it, and just the simple fact it’s yummy.

This may be a strange thing to be thankful for but just think of thw thousands of people especially children that go to bed hungry. Or the ones that need feeding tubes and never fully get to taste food. I’m thankful every single day of my life that I can put food in front of me my husband and my daughter (and can’t forget Marco the dog) every day. There is never a day we go hungry. I just wish everyone went to bed feelimg full. And maybe some day everyone will.

But today I’m thankful for the food in my house.

Talk soon,

Marena