Pregnant? So soon? Why?

Well it’s officially official. I’m pregnant with baby #2. In fact I’ve been pregnant for 20 weeks. I’m half way done!

My daughter is one month shy of being a year and a half old. She’ll be a year and 9months old when baby #2 is born. So I’ll have 2 under 2.

For some reason I keep getting the same questions. Why would you want a second already? Don’t you feel like that will take away from your daughter? Are you bored? Are you crazy?

I’m just over here like uhhh….. No I’m not crazy nor am I bored. But I have tons of love in my heart (and so does my husband) and we’re ready for baby #2. Also of course I don’t feel like I’m taking anything away from my daughter. Just because we’re growing our family doesn’t mean we’ll leave the family we already have behind. In fact part of growing our family means each and everyone of us will grow in our own ways. And guess what? That means so will our daughter. She’ll receive just as much love if not more as she already does.

Part of why we were ready for baby #2 is because we want our children to grow up together. Not just in the same house but as friends. My sister and I are 5 years apart and we’re close but one thing we know for sure is if we were even 2 years closer in age we’d be so much better of friends. My husband says he’s so far in age from his youngest sibling that even though they are close he’s definitely not as close as he could be if she had come just a few years sooner.

All in all what I’m trying to say is I wish people didn’t have so many opinions. Just congratulate me and my family and move on. Keep the comments to yourself. Better yet if you feel the need to comment then tell your therapist. Don’t take away a special moment like having another baby from someone.

Well it’s that time! Meet baby W #2 from the womb! Baby #2 is a sweet baby boy! He’s growing amazing and very healthy!

Talk soon,

Marena

#momfriend

I never realized how important it was to have a friend until I had a baby. I realized I wanted someone who is going or has gone thru what I’m going through. I wanted someone to say *us against the world” with as we wade through piles of poopy diapers, spit up, and fussy babies. (And I mean more than my husband).

Then I made my first mom friend. It was amazing! I felt like I was frolicking through a meadow full of flowers. Flowers that masked the crazy going on underneath. And as time has gone on I’ve made several more mommy friends all at different times in their motherhood stage.

I encourage all of you to have a mom friend. Hey if your kid needs a friend to make life better why can’t us moms have one?

Talk soon,

Marena

P.S. Husband’s are great friends but there is something about talking to another mom. It’s like you have a totally different connection and understanding of being parent.

#lovethiskid

My oh my, my daughter will be 1 here soon (4 days). This year has flown by. There’s not a day where she wants to snuggle and drink her bottle and fall asleep. That’s great but it breaks my heart every night. I miss my sweet newborn who needed me to feed her.

You know I couldn’t breast feed my daughter longer than 5 weeks and even then it was a huge struggle. I was so upset it wasn’t working for me (in fact I still feel upset). It makes me wonder if the reason my daughter doesn’t want to snuggle more is because we never had that true intimate bond breast feeding can create. Don’t get me wrong I know my daughter loves me a ton but it’s still a thought I have. She’s miss independent.

Then you have nights like tonight where she refuses to sleep unless she’s in my arms. It’s those moments I realize just how much she loves me and I love her.

Talk soon,

Marena

#KidsAreCrazy

Recently my daughter has figured out she can lift her leg up onto things. For example she lifts her leg up on to the ledge of the bathtub. Thank goodness she hasn’t figured out how to actually climb out yet! But she’ll slip, fall, bump her knees, hit her head a thousand times yet she keeps getting back up to try again.

It’s so common for us to fall and act as if it was such a life altering fall. The fall could be from 2 inches off the ground or 2 feet and we act as if we fell from the top of the Empire State Building. But here is this little girl falling over and over yet she keeps getting up as if nothing happened.

What happened to that child in me? The child that faced challenges over and over again as if it’s new every time.

I think I’m going to take a page out of my daughter’s book. I want to get back to The mentality of trying again just like my daughter.

What’s that saying? If at first you don’t succeed try try again.

What are some areas you find yourself falling?

Talk soon,

Marena

P.s. I’m also thankful my daughter can’t get her leg over the rail to her crib. But it’s only a matter of time.

#momlife

Ah yes Mom life…. The never ending journey of growth!

Technically I became a mother the day I found out I was pregnant with my angel baby. I never expected my first mom life momemt to be mixed with such joy and sadness in such a short time. I knew I was pregnant for 2 weeks before I found out I had lost my baby. I then spent another 2 weeks of technically being pregnant and another month after that where I was no longer pregnant but my body felt like it was. I went from being so excited and ready to be a mom to wanting to crawl under a rock and never come out.

I talked with people and shared my sadness but I never truly told anyone how much pain I was in. Not even my husband. It was a pain that I just couldn’t explain. And honestly it was a pain I felt I deserved. Now don’t get me wrong I knew there was nothing I did wrong and sometimes these things happen. But all I could think was how it was MY body that couldn’t grow this baby and MY body rejected not anyone else’s. Mine! I read a few books and prayed a lot and I finally came to terms with everything. But even 2 years later I still have my moments where I fall back into that sadness and anger at myself.

But then I got pregnant with my daughter Kairi. I had a new mom life moment. One filled with joy and happiness. One that’s also filled with sleepy nights. You know because if baby doesn’t sleep then I don’t sleep. Not to mention everyone’s gotta have food before I even get a moment to sit. But I wouldn’t change it for the world!

Then it leads into my new mom life moment! I officially got the all clear to try for another baby! Even with all the crazy in my life I’m excited to go at it again! Baby number 2 here we come!

Talk soon,

Marena

#kidsarefunny

Oh my goodness in the last year I’ve laughed so much over funny moments with my daughter. My mom says she has to many moments to count with my sister and I. And if she’s anything like me then I bet she gave up counting before we were even a year old. That’s right there have been so many funny moments with Kairi I gave up counting and she’s not officially a year old until Friday (6 days)!

For a few months now Kairi has done two adorable things that my husband and I can’t help but laugh at. The first is she scrunches her nose up and huffs and puffs at you when she’s mad, frustrated, or just trying to make you laugh. The second cute thing is she pats you on the back. If you give her a hug, pick her up, burp her, or anything that puts her hands near your back she’ll pat. We think it happens because my husband and I always pat her on the back.

Now those might not be “funny” but man do they make me smile. Kairi is 1 year old here soon and I just can’t wait to see how many more funny moments we’ll have!

What’s your #kidsarefunny moments?

Talk soon,

Marena

30 Days of Thankful

November 30, 2017

Today I’m thankful formula. With out it I’d have no way to feed my daughter. For me my breast milk dried up just 5 short weeks after she was born.

So thank you to the person who thought of formula.

Talk soon,

Marena 

30 Days of Thankful

November 28, 2017

Today I am thankful for kind people. Over the course of Kairi’s life and that includes my pregnancy with her. Many friends, family, and even strangers donated clothing to her. I don’t know if donate is the right word exactly. But…. They all gave her some great clothes as hand me downs. These have been great because it has allowed us not to have to spend a lot of money on clothing. And although we could easily handle buying those items on our own it’s always appreciated not to have to worry about it.

So if you have children that out grow clothing and I know they do. Think about passing them on to someone else. And even if you don’t give they away free thing about selling them for very cheap. Clothing is expensive but food can be even more expensive. Cheap/free clothing allows our children to be stylish and extra adorable while we can spend money on what’s more important. FOOD. or you know DIAPERS. The two most important and expensive things children need.

Talk soon,

Marena

30 Days of Thankful

November 20, 2017

Today I’m thankful for trained car seat experts.

We purchased a new car seat but it looks like something is missing. So we are headed to Babies R Us to have someone take a look and double check. 

This might look small but in my opinion safety is a BIG thing to be thankful for.

Talk soon,

Marena

30 Days of Thankful

November 18, 2017

Today I’m thankful for a sleeping baby.

It may not be much but sometimes it’s heaven.

It’s great to rest, watch tv, clean, eat, all sorts of things!

And right now I’m getting to write this post while my daughter sleeps amd then I’ll be cleaning!

Talk soon,

Marena